I Got To Thinking: Her
I’m thinking. So I got to thinking about her.
Heading out of the theatre at the end of Serenity, I grabbed a Teen Tribute; Teen because I was in too much of a rush to look for the regular Tribute. Besides, all I’m interested in is the horoscope, and they’re all the same anyway, no matter what newspaper or magazine you pick up.
I don’t put much stock on astrology because I choose to believe that we have a modicum of control over our lives. But they do, on occasion, scare the crap out of me.
Totally true. I’ve changed my wardrobe considerably. I’ve felt different, more out there. More alive.
And the crush. That’s true too.
Now here’s the thing: It Ain’t Gonna Happen.
Why?
Because I say so. Because she’s not the same religion as me.
Why, dufus?
Because I want to focus on my career and family. With the changes at work, I don’t think I can give enough time and attention to anyone or anything else, much less a serious relationship.
Why do you lie to me?
Because I want to make myself feel better and I can’t really express the real reason why it’s a Bad Idea To Ask Her Out ‘cause I’m not totally 100% sure about it myself. In short, I need more time to think.
I’ve got time. I’m listening.
Okay, stop getting pushy. I’ll try to work the thought process faster.
Brad once told me “They’re not the ones marrying her.” He wasn’t the first to tell me that love, “Love,” is not about what your parents or her parents want, or what religion or creed the other person is. It doesn’t matter what nationality they are, or whether they’re left-handed or not. All those things that you think are hurdles will fall off if she’s the right person. People in love tend to make things work. He wasn’t the first to tell me that but he did put it in a way that shook, shocked and surprised me. And I agree wholeheartedly with tha t bit of wisdom.
Huh, imagine that. Bradley as Yoda.
So what are you waiting for? St. Swithin’s day?
What day is that? We get along fine but I haven’t felt The Spark. I want that spark. I’ve felt it before and it was great. I want it for my next relationship. I swore to myself… I swear to myself and the world that the moment I feel The Spark I will act.
It hasn’t happened with her yet. I stare into her round, brown eyes, listen to her high, loud, penetrating voice. Nothing. I enjoy her company. Most times, we’re surrounded by friends; but those couple of times it’s been just the two of us, there has been nothing. I really do have to ask her out on a real date.
So do it already.
Shut up. I’m thinking.
Heading out of the theatre at the end of Serenity, I grabbed a Teen Tribute; Teen because I was in too much of a rush to look for the regular Tribute. Besides, all I’m interested in is the horoscope, and they’re all the same anyway, no matter what newspaper or magazine you pick up.
I don’t put much stock on astrology because I choose to believe that we have a modicum of control over our lives. But they do, on occasion, scare the crap out of me.
You’re unusually energetic and bold right now. That’s because for the first time in your life, fiery Mars is going to be in your sign for six months! Yo Mama! That’s why you’re so flirtatious lately. You feel like hotstuff and you’re not afraid to show it. In fact, you have a serious crush on someone. This is excellent timing. You couldn’t pick a better time to dazzle the person of your dreams. (Issue 3, volume 8, Fall 2005, Teen Tribute)
Totally true. I’ve changed my wardrobe considerably. I’ve felt different, more out there. More alive.
And the crush. That’s true too.
Now here’s the thing: It Ain’t Gonna Happen.
Why?
Because I say so. Because she’s not the same religion as me.
Why, dufus?
Because I want to focus on my career and family. With the changes at work, I don’t think I can give enough time and attention to anyone or anything else, much less a serious relationship.
Why do you lie to me?
Because I want to make myself feel better and I can’t really express the real reason why it’s a Bad Idea To Ask Her Out ‘cause I’m not totally 100% sure about it myself. In short, I need more time to think.
I’ve got time. I’m listening.
Okay, stop getting pushy. I’ll try to work the thought process faster.
Brad once told me “They’re not the ones marrying her.” He wasn’t the first to tell me that love, “Love,” is not about what your parents or her parents want, or what religion or creed the other person is. It doesn’t matter what nationality they are, or whether they’re left-handed or not. All those things that you think are hurdles will fall off if she’s the right person. People in love tend to make things work. He wasn’t the first to tell me that but he did put it in a way that shook, shocked and surprised me. And I agree wholeheartedly with tha t bit of wisdom.
Huh, imagine that. Bradley as Yoda.
So what are you waiting for? St. Swithin’s day?
What day is that? We get along fine but I haven’t felt The Spark. I want that spark. I’ve felt it before and it was great. I want it for my next relationship. I swore to myself… I swear to myself and the world that the moment I feel The Spark I will act.
It hasn’t happened with her yet. I stare into her round, brown eyes, listen to her high, loud, penetrating voice. Nothing. I enjoy her company. Most times, we’re surrounded by friends; but those couple of times it’s been just the two of us, there has been nothing. I really do have to ask her out on a real date.
So do it already.
Shut up. I’m thinking.
