Of Performance Reviews and Hunger
I'm nervous. I'm hopeful. I'm nervous and I'm hopeful and now I'm kinda hungry.
My job performance review is on Friday and even though I've done this many times before I'm still fuckin' nervous. But only when I think about it.
And I know that I shouldn't be nervous because I'm totally awesome and everyone at work loves me (with the exception of two notable people. You know who you are.), I'm still a little apprehensive.
Why?
There really is no reason to be. My boss is great. He's the smartest guy I know. My boss' boss is also smart. They're two guys I want to be like. Mentally and bank-statemently. Now, my boss' boss' boss is a scary guy who's a real Machiavellian hard ass. Easy to get inside his head though because he's the type who loves to be feared. There's some suspicion that the histrionics are for show. Might could be it's upbringning. Though it's most likely for leverage. I try to avoid him as per George Washington's advice about being alone vis-a-vis being in bad company. But this is a tangent.
I'm somewhat prepared with my SWOT, and some other things I might want to talk about. Things I can't recall but was smart enough to write down. Somewhere.
But there's still some anxiety. It'll pass. Just like the hunger did.
My job performance review is on Friday and even though I've done this many times before I'm still fuckin' nervous. But only when I think about it.
And I know that I shouldn't be nervous because I'm totally awesome and everyone at work loves me (with the exception of two notable people. You know who you are.), I'm still a little apprehensive.
Why?
There really is no reason to be. My boss is great. He's the smartest guy I know. My boss' boss is also smart. They're two guys I want to be like. Mentally and bank-statemently. Now, my boss' boss' boss is a scary guy who's a real Machiavellian hard ass. Easy to get inside his head though because he's the type who loves to be feared. There's some suspicion that the histrionics are for show. Might could be it's upbringning. Though it's most likely for leverage. I try to avoid him as per George Washington's advice about being alone vis-a-vis being in bad company. But this is a tangent.
I'm somewhat prepared with my SWOT, and some other things I might want to talk about. Things I can't recall but was smart enough to write down. Somewhere.
But there's still some anxiety. It'll pass. Just like the hunger did.
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